{"id":4299,"date":"2022-09-03T20:39:23","date_gmt":"2022-09-03T20:39:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lionsgatebuddhistpriory.ca\/?post_type=newsletter&p=4299"},"modified":"2022-09-03T20:39:23","modified_gmt":"2022-09-03T20:39:23","slug":"newsletter-136-the-way-seeking-mind","status":"publish","type":"newsletter","link":"https:\/\/lionsgatebuddhistpriory.ca\/blog\/newsletter\/newsletter-136-the-way-seeking-mind\/","title":{"rendered":"Newsletter 136 – The Way-Seeking Mind"},"content":{"rendered":"
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The Way-Seeking Mind<\/b><\/p>\n

Rev. Master Aurelian Giles<\/b><\/p>\n

This is a transcription of a talk given at Lions Gate Buddhist Priory in November 2021.<\/i><\/p>\n

Homage to the Buddha.<\/p>\n

Homage to the Dharma.<\/p>\n

Homage to the Sangha.<\/p>\n

Rev. Master Jiyu said, several times, some version of the following: \u201cIf you\u2019re going to sit in front of a wall and practice meditation, you run the risk of being grabbed by the Cosmic Buddha.\u201d There is a lot in that short statement. People come to meditation practice and to Buddhism for a lot of different reasons; and probably not everyone is looking for the full enlightenment of a Buddha. It may be that they just want to feel a little bit better, become a bit happier, or become calmer.<\/p>\n

In my case, I was a very young man living and working in a small town in rural Alberta, quite lonely, and I would go to the bar every night and drink beer and go to my room and fall asleep, sometimes pass out, and then wake up and go to work in the morning. I came across an article in a Reader\u2019s Digest about how to meditate. This would be 1973 or 1974, I was 19 or 20 years old. And there was a lot of discussion about meditation at that time. There were all kinds of different practices. Some were probably not very good; the people who were teaching them may have had motives of fame and gain rather than handing on and teaching a tradition.<\/p>\n

The article that I read told about how to meditate using a mantra, and it largely dealt with the physiological benefits of doing so. The writer was a professor in Harvard, who did studies that proved that meditation calmed people down, lowered their blood pressure, made them calmer; he proved this through measurable means. He tested their brain waves and things like that.<\/p>\n

So I thought, \u201cOh. Wow. Okay.\u201d I was actually deeply unhappy. I didn\u2019t realise how unhappy I was at the time. So I tried it out. The instructions were that one needed to carry it out on several days in a row before feeling any benefits. I did this every night when I got back from work. And I remember the third or fourth night, I got back from work, had some supper, and went to the bar. I was sitting there, and everything seemed clearer to me, and I felt different. I felt calm. And I didn\u2019t even want to finish drinking my beer. I think I might have even left the bar without finishing it, which was unbelievable to me. That was the beginning of my search. I didn\u2019t realise at the time that I was on a search.<\/p>\n

Great Master D\u014dgen and other teachers have talked about what D\u014dgen called \u201carousing the Way-seeking mind\u201d. This is also called Bodhicitta in Sanskrit. It means the heart or the mind that seeks the Way. The heart of a Bodhisattva.<\/p>\n

As I said, I didn\u2019t realise I was on a journey to try to become a Bodhisattva; I just wanted to feel better. Lama Yeshe gave a talk about that, and he said that if you are just practicing to feel a bit better then you are not going to get very much out of it. But that is where I started.<\/p>\n

I\u2019d like to read what Great Master D\u014dgen said. This is from a book called Sh\u014db\u014dgenz\u014d Zuimonki translated by a monk named Shohaku Okumura. (See note 1 below). <\/span><\/em>Someone asked D\u014dgen the following question:<\/p>\n

Although many years have passed since aspiring to learn the Way, I have not yet had any realisation. Many of the ancient teachers have said that the Way does not depend on intelligence or wisdom. Therefore, I don\u2019t think we should demean ourselves because of our inferior capacity. Is there something about this that has been handed down in the tradition that I should keep in mind?<\/p>\n

D\u014dgen starts off by saying that the questioner is right about \u201cnot relying on intelligence, talent, quick-wittedness, or wisdom in learning the Way.\u201d Then he says, \u201cHowever, it is wrong to mistakenly encourage a person to become blind, deaf, or ignorant.\u201d In other words, if we are going to start on the path, we should allow for the possibility that we might find what we are looking for. This is what Rev. Master Jiyu was saying.<\/p>\n

Great Master D\u014dgen goes on to say this: \u201cI believe this. It depends only on whether one\u2019s aspiration is firmly determined or not. A person who arouses true aspiration and studies as hard as his capacity allows will not fail to attain the Way.\u201d My teacher, Rev. Master K\u014dten, has put it this way: \u201cIf you are the type of person who is looking for this sort of thing, you are the type of person who will find it.\u201d<\/p>\n

Great Master D\u014dgen goes on to say, \u201cWe have to be careful to concentrate on and directly carry out the following practice: first of all, just maintain the aspiration to earnestly seek.\u201d He then gives examples, saying that if a person is single-mindedly focused on something, then all their efforts are going to be towards achieving that thing. He says:<\/p>\n

In the same way, if the aspiration to seek the way is earnest enough, when you practice shikan-taza [Serene Reflection Meditation], or study the k\u014dans, or meet your Teacher, though the aim is high, you will hit the mark. Though it is deep, you will fish it out. Next, to arouse such an aspiration, think deeply in your heart of the impermanence of the world.<\/p>\n

This is something he talks about over and over again in his writings. He says that seeing into impermanence completely is enlightenment itself.<\/p>\n

It is not a matter of meditating using some provisional method of contemplation. It is not a matter of fabricating in our heads that which does truly not really exist. Impermanence is truly the reality right in front of our eyes. We need not wait from some teaching from others, proof from some passage of scripture, or some principle. Born in the morning, dead in the evening. A person we saw yesterday is no longer here today. These are the facts we see with our eyes and hear with our ears. This is what we see and hear about others. Applying this to our own bodies, and thinking of the reality of all things, though we expect to live for 70 or 80 years, we die when we must die. During our lifetime, though we may see the reality of sorrow, pleasure, love of our families, and hatred of our enemies, these are not really worthy matters. We could spend time letting go of them. In reality, it is only today or even this moment that we can thus think of worldly affairs or of the Buddha Way. Therefore, in such an unpredictable world, it is extremely foolish to waste time worrying about various ways of earning a living in order to postpone one\u2019s death, uncertain as it is, to say nothing of plotting evil against others.<\/p>\n

Sometimes, I think people can find the teachings of Buddhism kind of depressing, or make them feel despair. But that is when we are looking at it from our own selfish point of view. The reality, as he said, is that everything is impermanent; impermanence is right before us at this very moment. And this impermanence is emptiness, and this emptiness is Great Compassion itself.<\/p>\n

Let us \u2018fast forward\u2019 a few years later in my life. I had realised that I wanted to study Buddhism; or at least, I was drawn to it. I didn\u2019t really want to study anything. I was very mixed up by this time. Forget about going to the bar every night for a beer. I was in the throes of an alcohol and drug habit. Yet, I was still drawn to meditation and Buddhism. There was a meditation group in Vancouver that was associated with Shasta Abbey, and Lions Gate Buddhist Priory emerged out of that group. The group would host meditation weekends every month or so.<\/p>\n

A monk would travel up from the Abbey and teach. There would be quite a lot of meditation through the day. I would really look forward to going to these retreats, not so much to hear what the monk had to say, but rather I looked forward to the meditation because I would leave with that same feeling of clarity and calmness that I had experienced years ago. I was grasping after those feelings. I was very selfish in my motivations. And the feelings of calmness and clarity would disperse very quickly, because I would return to my old habits. And I thought that somehow I could do that: use the meditation to feel calm and continue with my other habits.<\/p>\n

Lama Yeshe, a Tibetan teacher, put it this way in the last series of public talks that he gave shortly before his death in 1984 (See note 2 below)<\/em><\/span>:<\/p>\n

Without bodhicitta, nothing works. And most of all, your meditation doesn’t work, and realisations don’t come. Why is bodhicitta necessary for success in meditation? Because of selfish grasping. If you have a good meditation but don\u2019t have bodhicitta, you will grasp at any little experience of bliss: \u201cMe, me; I want more, I want more.\u201d Then the good experience disappears completely\u2026\u201cMe, me, I’m miserable, I want to be happy. Therefore I\u2019ll meditate.\u201d It doesn\u2019t work that way. For some reason good meditation and its results\u2014peacefulness, satisfaction and bliss\u2014just don\u2019t come.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want to go into a whole autobiography, let\u2019s just say that things evolved. And here I am, a monk. Who would have thought?<\/p>\n

There is something else I want to say about this. I had been grabbed by the Cosmic Buddha the very first time I sat down to meditate; I just didn\u2019t realise it. Something within me had given rise to seeking true freedom from suffering. I didn\u2019t know this at the time. I was still floundering around, thinking I could just continue to stomp my way through life and be completely irresponsible and have the benefits of Buddhism. Nevertheless, something in me had been awakened.<\/p>\n

I will tell this story about myself, because it\u2019s important. The day I quit drinking, I had gone out at 11 o\u2019clock in the morning with friends, and we were barhopping all day. I was drinking all day and getting drunker as the day wore on. But I couldn\u2019t find that \u2018thing\u2019 that I was looking for when I drank, which was to get oblivious to the suffering that I felt. That was why I drank. And it was, quite literally, as if there was a being sitting on my shoulder watching me. Not judging, just watching. And I could not turn away from that being, which was my own awareness. I could not turn away from my own awareness of what I was doing, how silly I was, thinking I was sophisticated and grown up, when I was acting like a fool. That night I went home to my house, about midnight, and what happened was that I heard an interior voice that said, \u201cIf you continue to do this, you are going to die.\u201d At that time, my father, who was a very desperate alcoholic, had about two years left to live; he was drinking himself into his grave. What that voice said was, \u201cIf you continue to do this, you will end up like him, and you will die.\u201d And I didn\u2019t want to die. I broke down, and basically, it was the way it says in the Litany of the Great Compassionate One, \u201cAll, all is defilement, earth, earth.\u201d That is what I felt. It was all defiled. And I cried out. \u201cTo Indra the creator I cry.\u201d I cried out in my heart. And Great Compassion answered.<\/p>\n

I would like to be able to say it was a clear path up the mountain after that, but it wasn\u2019t. It was very, very difficult. That was the last time I drank. But it wasn\u2019t easy. Because I had to look at the wreckage of my life and all my karmic wake. If I looked behind me I would see that I had cut a swathe of destruction. And I had to do something about that.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m really, really grateful that I was able to discover Buddhism, because it saved my life. And what I want to say is, we should not judge ourselves. If we think we are a really horrible trainee; if we think of all the things we haven\u2019t done or have done which we then decide makes it impossible for us to achieve the Way, we shouldn\u2019t do that, we shouldn\u2019t think that way. Because you are here, you have come here because you are earnestly seeking. You may not know it or feel it, but Bodhicitta has been awakened in you. And the promise, as it is said, is true: \u201cIf you are the person who looks for these things, then you are the person who will find them.\u201d And you never know. You might be a moment away from becoming a fully enlightened Buddha.<\/p>\n

I remember Rev. Master K\u014dten said to me once, \u201cYou should never look down on a person who is passed out drunk in the gutter. They might be doing really deep Bodhisattva practice. Don\u2019t judge yourself, and don\u2019t judge others.\u201d<\/p>\n

When I was a new monk, there was someone who was coming to the Priory who was painfully sincere. And it sort of bothered me, and I said to Rev. Master K\u014dten, \u201cDon\u2019t you think it\u2019s just a bit much?\u201d And he said, \u201cJust ignore that. Ignore that thought going through your head. That person is deeply sincere. And that is what you need to see.\u201d And that was a very helpful piece of advice.<\/p>\n

What I am talking about might be called, in other traditions, the \u201cawakening of faith.\u201d And if you think you don\u2019t have any faith, well, you are here. So you must have some sort of faith. As Rev. Master Jiyu said, \u201cWe all of us believe thatwhen the sun goes down, it will come up in the morning. But there is no proof of that. We just have faith that it will.\u201d<\/p>\n

There is an old joke. A pastor is preaching to his flock. \u201cBrothers and sisters, you have come here to pray for rain. Well, I ask you: where are your umbrellas?\u201d<\/p>\n

Homage to all the Buddhas in all worlds.<\/p>\n

Homage to all the Bodhisattvas in all worlds.<\/p>\n

Homage to The Scripture of Great Wisdom.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Note 1; <\/span><\/em>Okumura, Shohaku, translator: Shobogenzo Zuimonki, <\/i>(Wisdom Publications, 2022) pp 92-94<\/span><\/p>\n

Note 2:<\/span><\/em>\u00a0<\/span>Yeshe, Lama Thubten: The Enlightened Experience, Collected Teachings: Volume 3, (<\/i>Lama Yeshe Wisdom Archive, Boston, 2020) p. 50<\/span><\/p>\n

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